I don't know what to do

I mentioned a couple weeks ago that something bad has happened to my mother.  Well it turns out it is getting worse and I'm not sure what to do, say, or feel. I feel completely numb and angry.  I'm not sure why I'm upset but I am.  Hmm it hurts and cuts deep.  I normally don't show that I'm hurting on an everyday basis.  I'm pretty good at hiding my feelings.  I am hurting tonight tho and would love the pain to go away.  I pray for you mom!